Like I have been saying I am so stresed that I wish I could go on a vacation just to relieve some of the stress. I would give anything just to have a Outer Banks vacation rental for a few days and relax. I am not sleeping so good right now and it is totally messing me up.

I think I am going to try some meditation techniques I read online to see if they help relax me. My muscles are so tense right now that it hurts to move around.If all else fails I am going to try and take a nice bubble bath. I really need to find something that is going to relax me right away. Do any of you have any suggestions ?

Damn I have been crying so much lately that I swear my eyes look like they are going to permanently stay puffy. I tried to use some eye cream to alleviate the puffiness. I am not sure if its going to help since I still keep crying and crying. I am just an emotional wreck but I dont know how else to cope with things.

I am trying to not comfort eat since that is what I always tend to do. Maybe if I walked for about 30 minutes to an hour I would feel a little bit better and not give in to this depression. We need a miracle or some kind of solution to these problems we are facing that is what we need. I also need to stop crying !!! It is not going to make things better but I sure do feel a little bit better every time

How can I lose weight when I am going through all kinds of drama at home ? Even though I look up lipozene reviews and other diet methods I cant motivate myself enough to lose the weight when I am going through so much right now. I seriously feel like I am going to have a nervouse breakdown any minute now.

I want to write about all the drama that I am going through but at the same time I feel to embarrassed to let others in “on my business” I tend to keep all my emotions in until I blow up and that is never good. I have always been able to solve any issues that come up and right now I feel like I have no control and I am absolutely hating that feeling.

I need to find the strength someone how. I just dont know where to look. I have been praying and been wishfully thinking but its not working.

The babies have started to breakout. I am wondering if baby acne is anything like adult acne? I dont know what made them break out but I just noticed that they have about 4 little pimples on their face. I know the babies sometimes breakout in the summertime but its been cold here so I dont know whats going on.

I hope these little pimples dont leave a mark on their beautiful faces. My babies have this perfect clean skin right now so these little bumps are bothering me bigtime. If they dont go away by next week I am going to take them to the docter to check them out.

I was hoping to be able to buy one of the many contemporary sofas I looked at to beautify my living room but I doubt I will be able to now. Lets just say that instead of gettting a tax return we are probably going to have to pay. I am a little bit upset about it but what can you do that’s life.

The say when life hands you lemons make a lemonade and that is what I plan to do. I plan to do whatever it is I have to do and keepp my chin up and keep on moving. We may be struggleing now but we wont always be. We are hard workers and are highly motivated,plu the hubby and I make a great team. We will be able to stand through any problems that come our way and be able to survive anything.

I love that we have a strong marriage and even though we dont always agree on things, we are good about getting to compromise on things so we both win. So my sofas can wait I will eventually get the furniture I have always wanted.

My weekend was busy to say the least. My three year old decided that it would be fun to throw his toys all over the place and in the process he broke the glass tile we had in the kitchen. While I want to redecorate I dont want or have the funds to do it so soon.

I cannot believe the strength he has and worse yet I cant believe it would break the way it did. I had an exhausting weekend because one of the twins is also sick and has been super cranky. I havent had a good nights rest and I feel like I am going to crash out any second now. I am going to try and take a nap as soon as I can because I really need it.

I am so bored. I want to go shopping but my budget wont allow it. I wish I could lower our car insurance that way I would have more money to spend. I would look through car insurance quotes but I hate having to give them all kinds of information to tell me that the price is the same as I am already paying.

I wonder what bills I can cut down so I have more money to spend. That is why I feel I need to have a good job that I can do at home. I have started to sell avon so I hope that I can get a little bit of spending money.

I should go to the movies or something cause I need to get out of the house. I feel cooped up in here since all last week it rained and I couldnt go anywhere.

This year is going to be the year that I finally get my crap together and actually set up to do the things I have been wanting to do but dont follow through on. I bought the Wii fit for me to work out on and as soon as the rain goes away I am going to be walking around the block again. I am debating wether I should buy some workout videos to do too.

I signed myself up to sell avon and I am actually excited about networking and meeting new people. I cant wait to sell avon. I love their products and what better way to get myself out there and meet new people. I also have my avon website setup so if you even need to order avon you can always contact me I am ready to help anytime.

I hope this ugly weather goes away soon. I am not used to so much rain.

I need to organize my garage because I can never find the things I need since the boxes in the garage are not labeled. I think I could have an easier time doing a New York job search than finding the kids nebulizer machine. This happens to me everytime we move and dont label boxes properly.

I cannot believe that the nebulizer I always used kicked the bucket. The kids asthma hasnt acted up until now so their was no need for me to find it up until now. I hope I dont have to order another one because those little suckers are expensive.

My almost teenage daughter has been breaking out in pimples lately and she is just miserable. I remember those days and they were not fun so i dont blame her for being upset. I have told her that alothough they seem really bad I have had worse breakouts than her.

I still have breakouts now and then but like any typical preteen she does not want to hear anything I have to say. She tells me I dont understand like as if I never was a teenager. I didn’t know how to get her to listen to me on the things she can do to prevent getting as many breakouts as she is so what I did was emailed her some information and sent her to look at howtotreatacne.org for her to read up on how to treat it and that way if she is reading the information and not wanting to hear what I have to say she can do what she needs to do.

I am already feeling the pangs of being a mama to a teenager. Geez I hope it gets easier but someone I doubt it.