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I have been sick the past few days because one of my sons got the flu and went and past it to the rest of the family. I have been trying to rest as much as I can with six kids in the house so you can imagine that. The one good thing is that they have been pretty calm cuase they are getting over the flu bug themselves.

They have been helping me sort out coupons and we have been watching movies and pretty much laying low. I hope this bug goes away and we dont see it in our house for a very long time. As soon as we are all better I am going to plan to take the kidd to the happiest place on earth.

Th summer is almost over and the kids will be starting school soon. I will just have the 4 year old and the twins and I am going to look into getting my 4 year old into pre school. I have some school workbooks that I use to teach him his colors and numbers but I think he would benefit having a school setting so he knows what to expect when he goes to kindergarten.

I had a super great time for the 4th of july weekend. My hubby got to stay home yesterday too as part of his july 4th weekend. We got to spend time together and even had a chance to take the kids to see the last airbender. The boys really liked the movie. On the 4th of july my cousin and her boyfriend came over to our house to enjoy the barbeque we had.

She likes to smoke cigarettes but is trying to wean herself off of smoking and has recently started using e-cigarettes I had never ever seen anything like it and was quite intrigued by them. She just laughed at me for taking such an amusement to her smoking them.  So anywsays she hung out with us throughout the evening and even went with us to the park to see the fireworks.  I dont think I have ever spent so much time with her as I had this weekend.

I had so much fun that I wished the weekend didnt go by so fast. I dont know when we will be able to just relax and chill the way we did. I hope my cousin comes around more often and she can bring her boyfriend too. I just hope he talks more than he did this last time. I would not have known he was here if it wasnt because my cousin kept telling him to talk and mingle with us.

I have odd thoughts going into my mind at times. I was sitting waiting for my movie to start and I started thinking about the difference of  commercial lighting and regular house lighting. From what my husband was explaining the difference is that  commercial lighting are for big areas such as gyms and things of that nature. Households dont really need that much lighting.

If you had a home theater in your house or if you had a mansion then you would need high powered lights. I dont have a mansion so I guess I dont need that kind of lighting although the lighting was nice at the theatre which is what got me thing in the first place. Oh and by the way we went to see “Eclipse” which was fabulous by the way and I recommend everyone going out and seeing it.

I cant wait til the 4th of july I think we will have a barbeque or go to the beach. I have been  feeling so much better and I am very grateful for the family I have.

The babies birthdays are tommorow and they are sick. I was going to plan a big birthday party but since they have a cold I am going to do their party sometime in June. I am sitting here on my bed reading acne treatment reviews because for some reason my body thinks its a teenager and goes and breaks out in pimples all the time. I wouldnt mind it so much if they didnt pop out in the most inopportune times.

I took some pictures the other day and all you could see was the pimples on my face. I wish I knew how to retouch pictures and make my face all nice and smooth. I am amazed reading how many people break out in pimples in their adult life. My daughter laughs and laughs telling me that I break out more than she does and that she is a teenager and she should be the one breaking out. Sometimes I try to convince myself that its the makeup thats breaking me out but what is my excuse when I am not wearing makeup? I have no excuse or reason for my breakouts. I just might have to see a dermatologist if these pimples dont go away.

I am a little bit disappointed in myself. I know I shouldnt get so down about not losing alot of weight but I do. I want to have a great weight loss success story and right now I dont. I have alot of friends who have been losing alot of weight and I am so happy for them. I just wish I could lose the weight I want to without having to struggle so much.

It seems like I only lose one or two pounds per week and at that rate I am never going to lose the 30 lbs I want to lose. Maybe I need to learn how to be patient but its so hard to be patient. I know the saying patience is a virture but its one I dont possess. I am one of those people who gets motivated by seeing results.

Have I told you that I have been trying to lose weight? I have lost 3 pounds so far and I wish it was way more. I have thought about using weight loss pilss to help me out and I have been looking at apidexin reviews to see if they would work out for me. I need some help because even though I was watching what I ate and excercised I didnt lose much weight. I admit I felt kind of disappointed that I didnt lose more weight.

I want to start off by losing 30 pounds and right now that goal seems so far away. I need motivation and a little boost so If diet pills help me why not take them. I am still goign to be reseaching what pills will work best for me and I hope sooner than later I can reach my goal weight.

SO far I have lost almost two pounds. This whole weight loss process is going by very slowly and I am seriously thinking of using fda approved diet pills. I have been getting so frustrated that even though I am walking and watching what I eat I havent really lost alot of weight.

I want to lose 30 lbs and at this rate it is going to take me forever to lose that much weight. I might have to work out more and start eating even less than I am already. I also plan to use the help of diet pills if that is what I have to do to reach my goal weight. I jsut have to make sure that the diet pills wont be harmfult o my body.

I have been reading the gossip websites and seeing alot of things about adoption and it got me thinking. Even though I have six kids and at times I feel overwhelmed I think I would adopt a child and give that child all the love I hae to give. I would hate for any child to feel unloved or that nobody cared about them.

I have read that some people couldnt love a child that wasnt theirs to me I think that a child you adopt is loved even more because the choice wasnt from the body it was from the heart. I dont know why reading about adoption hit a nerve but I really think I would adopt. If i have the means and the space why not love soemone who needs it. I applaud all the women who have adopted and even the mothers who have given their kids up for adoption. Giving a kid up for adoption is not an easy choice to make.

I dont know why I feel so sensitive on the subject but I do. It might be because I am hormonal right now I just feel so sensitive when it comes to adoption. If I ever have enough money, I sure as heck have the unconditional love to give a child and if the universe wants to bless us with a child so be it. I would love to be the mother in the show who had so many children she didnt know what to do.

My fry daddy has kicked the bucket. I hate when my appliances die. I have a close relationship with each and everyone of my appliances and each provide me a way to cook my food so when when one breaks down my whole world collides. Okay enough with my melodrama but my fryer did die and now I am gonna have to go and look for another one. I have two electric grills but I sometimes like to fry my chicken and I hate doing it on the stove.

In other news his graduation is this saturday and I still have a few things to do. I still have to order the cake and get the food. I just barely found a dress. I had bought a dress earlier but I wasnt sure if it was appropriate for his graduation or not.I still need to go and get the kids something nice to wear. I cannot believe that he is going to get his Master’s degree. He has been working so hard going to work fulltime and school too. I am so proud of him and all that he has accomplished and all without help. I am very prideful and I am glad to say that it was all his efforts and his hard work he didnt get any help from his parents. Its all him and now he is graduating.

Today is my birthday and I dont think I will be eating cake. I am really trying to lose weight and I am serious this time. Even if I might need weight loss supplements to help me out. I have always debated wether to use weightloss supplements to help me. I have a big issue with carbs I love junk food and sweets and all of them have lots of carbs.

I am shocked that I have been doing so good this week. I think I am going to keep a journal and write down my weight and what I have been eating to keep a record of everything. I have been wanting to pick a nice journal and write it down. I think I will go to the store and see what I find.

I think I will see of hubby wants to go to San Diego or if he just wants to hang out over here. I want to go out but I dont know where yet. I feel antsy and just want to go look around at the stores and maybe find a dress and some shoes for the hubbies graduation. Can you believe that his graduation is just around the corner!! I cant believe that on May 1st my hubby will have his master’s degree