I was hoping to be able to buy one of the many contemporary sofas I looked at to beautify my living room but I doubt I will be able to now. Lets just say that instead of gettting a tax return we are probably going to have to pay. I am a little bit upset about it but what can you do that’s life.

The say when life hands you lemons make a lemonade and that is what I plan to do. I plan to do whatever it is I have to do and keepp my chin up and keep on moving. We may be struggleing now but we wont always be. We are hard workers and are highly motivated,plu the hubby and I make a great team. We will be able to stand through any problems that come our way and be able to survive anything.

I love that we have a strong marriage and even though we dont always agree on things, we are good about getting to compromise on things so we both win. So my sofas can wait I will eventually get the furniture I have always wanted.

My desktop computer is on its last legs. I dont know if its the system memory that is going bad. I am not sure if its the hard drive or what all I know is that it runs super slow and then it crashes for no reason.

I need a new desktop. I hope to be able to get a new desktop and soon I hope. I cannot be without a computer for a long time. I feel withdrawls if I go a day or two without using the computer. I dont remember what life was before I owned a computer.

I would love to get one of those touch screen computers but right now I would settle for anything new and that runs fast not like the crappy computer I have to sue right now.

I feel much better than that other day . I dont know why I felt so sad. Today two of my buttons on my keyboard are giving me problems. It’s like they are getting stuck or something. They work when they want to and stop working a little bit later. I am probably going to have to buy a new keyboard. I want a Apple Imac or Apple Ibook. I also want a digital SLR camera but that is going to have to go on my wishlist of things I want but  can’t buy for now. 

 The weather here has been hot and it hasn’t even reached the 100’s yet . I do not know what I am going to do when it gets really hot and the air conditioner isn’t working all that great. I wish I could run around damn near naked because even the little bit of clothes I have on makes me so hot.

uuuggghhh I hate when things go wrong all at once.  My website Domesticvixen is down. My air conditioning isn’t working again. Instead of cooling the house down it is getting hotter. On top of that we are supposed to go visit family on Saturday but no one has bothered to return my phonecalls. I don’t know if the plans we had set months ago are still going. Jeez it days like this that I just want to lay my head down and forget about the world.

IF I had an Ipod I would put it on right about now and tune everybody out. Please please let everything resolve itself before my whole friday is ruined.

I fel really tired today. I spent 9 hours with my sis-in-law at the E.R. She was having chest tightness and since she has asthma it  was best for her to go and get checked out. It was such a busy night there. What boggled me is  that once we got a room which took about 6 hours they left us there for like 2 hours and I sat and watched how alot of the nurses entered info in the computer but didn’t really come and check on us  and who the heck knows where the docter was. There was a girl there who seemed in alot of pain and from what I could hear her paretns had came evryday fro like 5 days because their daughter was in alot of pain and would go into convulsions from the pain but they had sent her home with vicodin and told her to go see her regular practioner. I thought that they are supposed to take care of you before they send you home and if she had been  coming everyday with the same complaint why didn’t they admit her? I really hope they admitted her last night. I also hope htey gave her relief. She was and is in my thoughts and prayers.

The weather is hot here and I am not feeling too good. I was watching movies but the heat was making my head hurt.  I have the air conditioning running but I dont think it is working too good.

Yesterday I got me two beautiful Coach purses. I think I need to stop buying purses for a while because I am getting too carried away with them and they can be costly but they would be even more costly if I hadn’t gotten then on sale.

I sometimes wish I had more willpower when it came to my losing weight. I always say I am tired of being overweight but I never do anything about it. I really need to get on the ball about it . How many times am I going to have to write about it till I do something about it.

I sometimes feel  annoyed with the world. Weird huh. I don’t know I just feel like I was mistreated on some level .

When I was in jr high I think that is when it started I moved cities and started a new school and I for the first time witnessed how cruel people can be. I was never a popular kid I always felt like a misfit.  I was always considered one of the nerdy kids because I wore glasses and liked to read . I never really had any good friends till I met my best friend L ( we are still best friends and I am married to her brother.) until I met her  I had noone to talk to or that understood me. I was a kid who was wise beyond her age and had to grow up sooner than I was supposed to.

I never want my children to go thru what I went thru growing up and even though I can’t shelter them from life, I am going to try my darnest to shelter them from the cruelty of the world. I am going to give them the tools that they need to survive and what path they choose to take is theirs but at least I will have taught them the basics to survive and teach them that it is  better to be beautiful in the inside and let it shine out than to be beautiful on the outside but have an ugly heart.