I got another tattoo. I finally got the sun pout on the other side of my back so on the left side is the moon with the stars and on the right side is the sun with one star. As soon as I can I will take a picture of my back. I will show you the picture of the tattoo what I did was split them in half and got it on each side.

Its not a lie when they say tattoos are addicting because I already want another one. I just dont know what I am going to get next. here is the picture of the tattoos I got

I often ask myself if there is any safe diet pills that I can take. I have been struggling with my weight for a majority of my life and I want to do something about it. I have been changing the way I eat and excersicing but the weight is not falling off like I want it to. I struggle and struggle to get a few pounds off.

I dont know what it is that I am doing wrong. I often wonder if I need to go and get a personal trainer at the gym to teach me how to lose more than the measly 2 pounds that I have been losing. Its been 2 months and all I have lost are 6 pounds. I was expecting to at lest have lost 10 to 15 pounds by now but that is not the case.

I have alot of weight to lose and I get easily discouraged and if I am not seeing results I want to quit. I have been struggling with myself so much and stopping myself from giving up. I wish I could see more results showing that my hard efforts are paying off.

I see so many of my friends losing weight effortlessy and here I am busting my butt and eating right and walking and excersicing and I hardly see any difference. I wish I could see a big difference by now

Last weekend we put the security screen up and a patio screen on the back door and now that we are able to keep the doors open the home ventilation we are getting is awesome. I try to stay downstairs most of the day since its much cooler downstairs. Everyone knows that heat rises and sometimes even at night it doesnt cool down and I have to turn on the AC so I can sleep.

When the real hot weather comes I am going to make my bed downstairs and sleep downstairs because the tile floors keeps cool at least. I am going to be cranking my air conditioner and drinking nothing but cold iced tea or water. I hae started to wear tank top and shorts and flip flops. I am ready for the summer just not to ready fro the extreme heat. I should get used to it though since we do live close to the high desert. Palm Springs is less than a half hour away. I just wish I was closer to a beach.

In my journey to changing the way I eat I have started to go and visit health food stores. I love supporting the local fruit and vegetable vendors. One of my favorite places to go is the town farmers market. They usually set up their stands one day a week adn you can get the freshest fruits and vegetables. I love how modern they are because even though they work on the street they have there cut little electronic cash registers and their epson receipt printer. I think they must be powered through the stores that are close by cause I never gave it much thought how they used those machines.

I am trying to cut down on my meat consumption. I am going to try and see if I can learn to count my calories and stick to eating smaller portions than what I am doing now. I always have to tell myself that this is a lifestyle change and not just a diet.

Its my nephews birthday today. We have planned a little get together for him and I am having his mom and sister surprise him. He thinks that they have no way of getting over here to see him little does he know that they are on their way. I need to look into our life insurance policy that we have through hubbies work. We havent gotten any updates on his policy and we used to so soemthing must be up. I have told my hubby that we have to always be prepared for everything.

I cant believe how quickly the year is going by. I am super excited for th summer to be here. I have gotten my hammock and I am so going to be outside hanging out with my kids and enjoying the nice weather we are getting. I have to get the tires on their bikes fixed because I think the tires popped. I have been so busy that its hard for me to just sit down and chill. I have so many plans and Ideas for the kids to do this summer. I dont want them to be staying home all summer. I will try to post pictures of the birthday party later.

My hubby has finished school and now he is looking to find a better job or a second job where he can put his skill that he learned to good use. He had thought about getting an online degree but I am glad he went to school instead. I have always thought that its good for students to interact with the teachers. It might just be me though because my hubby took some courses online many years ago and did quite well.

I have given thought to going back to school but I always worry about who will watch my kids. If the kids were older I woukd be able to do it but I worry alot about who will take care of them if I were to go to school or get a job. I ask myself often if thats just an excuse or is that really the case of why I cant do anything. I guess my biggest thing is that I want someone I can trust to watch my kids. I have read and heard too many awful things about daycare facilities that if I dont have to leave my kids in one I wont. I can always see If I can find some online courses that are legit and see if I can work from home

My babies turned one but we arent going to have a party for them til next month. I am currently trying my best to lsoe wiehgt but I keep going up and down with my weight. I either dont lose anything or I lose a pound and then gain it right back. My sis in law keeps telling me that I should look at colonix reviews and get a colon clease. I dont really understand how much getting my colon worked on will help me lose alot of weight but I am willing to try it if it means I will lose more than a couple of pounds.

My hubby says he will also help me lose weight and I am glad that he is willing to work out with me. I am one of those people who needs someone to work out with or to encourage me when I want to not workout or eat whatever I want. I am currently between 214 and 213. I keep going back and fourth. The good thing is that I now fit a size 18 and some size 16 clothes and that makes me very excited!! I want to ideally be a size 8 or 10 but I have a long way to go before I can get there.

Last year for christmas the kids got a Nintendo Wii. I am going to admit that I have been using the wii to work out too. I love all the cool wii accessories you can buy and use. Not only is the wii for the kids its for the adults too. I have bought workout games and just games for the whole family.

The kids want a Ps3 but I dotn know about buying one just yet. I will have to start saving money now if I expect to buy them one for christmas. I would love to be able to give my kids all they want but sometimes we just cant afford it. I hope to be able to start saving money and putting it into a savings account that we can touch. I want to be able to take vacations with my kids and buy them things I didnt get growing up.

I have been so busy that I forgot to tell you guys how well hubby’s graduation went. Hubbies family came down or rather hubby went to Laas Vegas and picked them up so that they could be there to see him graduate. It was a fun filled day we had his grandparents come to the house afterwards and we had a barbeque to celebrate.

I guess we must have celebrated a little bit too much because some neighbor called the cops on us. We were just talking and hanging out in the backyard but these neighbors are so freaking sensitive and they have not liked us since we moved in. It doesnt help that we are the only ethnic ones in this whole cul de sac. Regardless we came in the house and continued talking and just having fun.

The babies birthdays are coming up and although we will be having a party it wont be as big of one as it was for hubbies graduation. I want to get the babies each their own cake to smash and do whatever they want to it. I have always done that for my other kids and its sort of like a little tradition for me. I cannot believe my babies are going to be a year old!!

By this time tommorow my husband will be graduated with a Master’s degree in Business Adminstration. I am soo freaking proud of him. I have been getting everything ready for us to go down to his graduation ceremony. I am a little saddend that my uncle cannot go with us to celebrate such a wonderful time in our family. I often worry about him.

I have been trying to help him get life insurance but when you are already sick the life insurance rate is sky high and some places dont even want to give trhen to you. I know he often worries about his kids but I think they will be fine. His children are big now and can take care of themselves.

I will take lots of pictures and make sure that I send them to my uncle and at least he can feel he is there through the pictures. I have yet to pack and I will get to that very soon. I am still trying to get the house cleaned up and ready for our guests. I am beyond excited for my husband he is the first one to go to college and graduate. I hope my kids follow dads footsteps and it will be them graduating from high school and then college.