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I have been takiong it easy after last nights attack. I am watching what I am eating today and have been eating things that are very bland. I know I should just go and get my gallbladder out. I am too scared to get surgery and that is what is stopping me. I have good insurance and I consider it up there with Blue Advantage which I heard was one of the best. I really need to get over my fear and just get the freaking thing taken out.

I think I seriously freaked out the hubby after screamming in pain. He had to get up to go to work early and I doubt he had much sleep. I really hope he doesnt make me go to the doctor even though I know I should.

I had the worst night ever!! I had another gallstone attack and these attacks are no joke. I thinke they are worse that giving birth. I have given birth 5 times and the gallstone attacks have been far far worse than the labor and birth of all my babies.

I couldnt take the pain and was about to pass out. I splashed some water and sat down on the floor before I passed out. I would say that the pain lasted a good 4 or 5 hours and slowly subsided. I am wondering what caused the attack this time ?

I was close to going to the hospital but the hospital that is assigned to me is about an hour away. The hospital closest to me sucks and I really did not want to go there. I am gonna watch what I eat today and hope that I dont get another attack anytime soon.

I really need a planner or some kind of reminder to remind me of things. I totally forgot that I had open house today for the kids so now I am running around getting the little kids ready to go to the older kids school. I sometimes wish I could have a clock that would stop time and let me get everything I needed to get done. I would then click on the time again and time would go back to normal and I would have everything done.

I will get off of here and finish getting ready and go buy some cookies to take to the kids classroom

To get my mind off of things I have decided to get my holiday shopping in order. Can you believe that in four months from today it will be christmas. I always start my shopping early because I have to many kids to buy for. My family loves to throw holiday parties and have already stated shopping for holiday invitations to send out.

I swear our family does nothing but party. I love going to their parties and I am just glad that they are not thrown at my house cause the clean-up for those parties is not something I would like to do. If I ever did throw one of those parties I would have a clean up party right after because our family is huge and a party of 20 turns into 100 or so people attending.

There is nothing I hate more than a liar and fake people. I am nothing but honest and I expect my friends or people I consider friends to be the same way with me. I hate people that talk behind other peoples back. I feel like that is so high school and way to childish way to act.

I have never ever been jealous or tried to copy other people. I am not that type to want to be like other people that I must copy their every move. I have my own ideas and thoughts and I never ever want to be like someone so bad that I must buy everything the other person owned.

I like being me and I love being unique so if anyone ever thinks I am copying them or envy them they better say that about someone else cause it’s not me. I love being the way I am and would never be jealous of other people in the least. I will get off the soapbox now.

Do you have any bad habits or little quirks? My little quirk is that I like to collect promotional pens. Every store that I go to that offers free pens with their logo on them I like to get. I can never keep too many pens in this house. For some reason they disappear and when I have to take a message I can never find them.

I like the promotional pens because if I ever need the stores number their are conviently on the pen. Quite truthfully I think that any item with a logo from a place is great advertisement because everyone loves free swag and if your logo is on it people will know about your place and get stuff from there.

If I ever have my own business I am going to set up a bunch of promotional pens and stationary to give out and promote my business that way. Until then though I will keep collecting my promotional pens whenever I go to a place that offers them. I cant help but love free swag, dont you ?

After getting back from going out with my friend I think I need to excercise on the treadmill a little bit. I always go out to eat with him when we go show properties. This eating out is making me gain more weight and that is no bueno. I would normally walk outside but its been in the triple digits and I am not going to dare set a foot outside and go walking if I dont have to.

I could always buy apidexin to lose weight but I am really trying to lose as much weight as I can on my own before I start taking pills to help. Dont get me wrong I have given lots of thought to taking diet pills to help me. I just figure that I need to try my hardest at losing weight naturally before I resort to diet pills. I am not against taking them though.

I really need to start though cause I say I will and then I dont. The holidays will be here and thats when I really really gain all the weight from all the good food that there is on the holidays.

I have been feeling so stressed out with the car breaking down and the kitchen sink breaking down too. I feel like slowly this house is breaking down and the car is starting to break down little by little too and that puts more stress. I need to unwind. I need to go out and have a carefree day.

I would give anything to get my hands on some Taylor Swift tickets. I havent been to a concert in a good 5 years or so. I love going to concerts because I can let my stress go and just enjoy the music. I am one of those people that worries all the time and freaks out about everything and I do mean everything.

Maybe I also need to take some kind of stress relieve classes but for right now I would much rather go see Taylor Swift sing. I can always relate to her songs. I would recommend anyone to hear Taylor her sing. Seeing her sing live is one of my dreams.

My face is breaking out but what do I expect if I have been eating nothing but junk food. How do I expect to treat acne with the way I am eating now. Even If I get proffesional help I am still going to be breaking out.

I need to detoxify my body of all the pollutants I have been putting in lately and then go about clearing my face up. I have completely let myself go and now its going to take me a while before I get back into my routine. I need to first start by eating better.

I have noticed that when I eat alot of junk food my face breaks out more so obviously my way of eating has a big effect on my breakouts. I also need to start washing my face more because this summer heat has me feeling more greasy. I really need a wh9ole makeover because I have totally let myself go these past couple of months. I need to get back into worrying about my self and not about my outside family. My hubby and my kids and myself should be my first priority. I cant always be fixing everybody else problems. My body and face is paying the price!!

Remember those six pounds I lost a while back? Well I gained those pounds right back. I got complacent and when family was visiting out went my diet and excercise and in went all the junk food you can imagine. I am back at square one looking up diet pill reviews to see what will curb my appetite and give me some energy to work out.

Let me tell you its a lot easier to keep a routine than to stop it and start all over again. I keep postponing the day to start working out and my clothes are feeling the bulge. I also need to eat alot better than what I am doing now. I am constantly on the run with the kids that I often times forgo eating. I need to get it in my head that I need to eat 3 or 4 square meals and not once a day.

I need to stop using the excuse of the heat which is in the triple digits might I add and just work out at home. Even if its just a few minutes a day and then work myself up to longer thats what I need to do. I need to stay healthy for my kids and myself. Those should be my biggest motivators.