I am turning girly girly. I have never been the type to want all my electronics pink or white til now. I have my eye set on a pink Sony VAIO laptop. I use my hubbies plain black one and I want a nice girly one for me.

I must admit that I want a nice pink laptop because I know that if I get a new laptop he is going to want to take it over. If I have a pink laptop he wont dare touch it or take it to school so that is partly the reason why I would like the pink one versus the white one.

Tell me which one would you pick ? Would u want a pink Sony VAIO laptop or a White Sony VAIO laptop?

I was hoping to be able to buy one of the many contemporary sofas I looked at to beautify my living room but I doubt I will be able to now. Lets just say that instead of gettting a tax return we are probably going to have to pay. I am a little bit upset about it but what can you do that’s life.

The say when life hands you lemons make a lemonade and that is what I plan to do. I plan to do whatever it is I have to do and keepp my chin up and keep on moving. We may be struggleing now but we wont always be. We are hard workers and are highly motivated,plu the hubby and I make a great team. We will be able to stand through any problems that come our way and be able to survive anything.

I love that we have a strong marriage and even though we dont always agree on things, we are good about getting to compromise on things so we both win. So my sofas can wait I will eventually get the furniture I have always wanted.

I have been so busy that I didnt have time to come and write in here for the new year. We spent the new year at home relaxing and just celebrating it with the family. It was nice and quite for a while till the neighbors started their party. It must have been a nice one because I could smell the scent of cigars coming from their yard.

I love certain scents and some cigars smell nice and black and milds smell nice in my opinion. I know its weird that I like certain scents but I do. Take for instance I like the smell of pinesol yes the floor cleaner.I like to use it because I think it smells good and cleans and disinfects the floors.

Now back to cigars while I dont smoke them I like the smell of them. Something about the smell reminds me of far away places.

I am bored and tired and upset. I feel bored because I dont have anything fun to do. I feel tired because my body is run down and I don’t stop to take care of myself. I feel upset because no matter how much I clean the house is always messy and the girl’s room is always messy and it is never clean. I really wished I could have someone come and do a thourough cleaning from top to bottom and then I would be able to relax.

 The girls both lost their MP3 players. It frustrates me to no end that they don’t know how to take care of their stuff. They don’t care for the value of things. How does one teach their children to take care of things and value what they get ?

The weather is hot here and I am not feeling too good. I was watching movies but the heat was making my head hurt.  I have the air conditioning running but I dont think it is working too good.

Yesterday I got me two beautiful Coach purses. I think I need to stop buying purses for a while because I am getting too carried away with them and they can be costly but they would be even more costly if I hadn’t gotten then on sale.

I sometimes wish I had more willpower when it came to my losing weight. I always say I am tired of being overweight but I never do anything about it. I really need to get on the ball about it . How many times am I going to have to write about it till I do something about it.

I am feeling hot,annoyed,bothered, irritated all at the same time. I think I need to go take a nap at least sleeping makes everything feel better. I want to go to the movies but I haven’t had a chance to go. I hope to be able to go next week

I sometimes feel  annoyed with the world. Weird huh. I don’t know I just feel like I was mistreated on some level .

When I was in jr high I think that is when it started I moved cities and started a new school and I for the first time witnessed how cruel people can be. I was never a popular kid I always felt like a misfit.  I was always considered one of the nerdy kids because I wore glasses and liked to read . I never really had any good friends till I met my best friend L ( we are still best friends and I am married to her brother.) until I met her  I had noone to talk to or that understood me. I was a kid who was wise beyond her age and had to grow up sooner than I was supposed to.

I never want my children to go thru what I went thru growing up and even though I can’t shelter them from life, I am going to try my darnest to shelter them from the cruelty of the world. I am going to give them the tools that they need to survive and what path they choose to take is theirs but at least I will have taught them the basics to survive and teach them that it is  better to be beautiful in the inside and let it shine out than to be beautiful on the outside but have an ugly heart.