I often dream of when the kids get bigger to go and be able to get a job. I dont quite know what I want to do yet but I know that alot of jobs sound fun and interesting. I have thought about being a insurance marketing agent or a Data clerk or a bill collector. I dont know why but these Jobs sound like they would be fun to do.

I dont want a super easy job that is going to bore me to death I want something esciting that will make me want to wake up and go to work. I think I feel so eager to work because I havent had that many jobs in my life but I bet if I worked as hard as others have I might not feel the same way.

With all the life issues we are having the one good thing I can say is that our love life has not been affected, which is a good thing. That is one way for me to get rid of my stress and thank goodness my hubby doenst need any help in that department so there is no need for us to be looking at buying extenze or anything.

If I couldnt have that alone time with the hubby I would have surely gone crazy by now. Its those quiet intamite moments we have that makes us keep going day by day and helps us fight stronger to make this life work. Why didnt anyone tell us that growing up was going to be so hard. I would have liked to stay a child much longer if I knew of the daily stress that being a grown up involves.

Oh what I wouldnt give to look like Kim Kardashian or have Kim Kardashian’s body. Have you seen her quick trim commercial? I think she is the best spokesperson for it because who wouldnt want to look curvacious and hot like her? I dont want to be super skinny I want to be curvacious because it looks better in clothes and swimsuits.

I used to want to be like Angelina Jolie but she got too skinny and I dont want to be that skinny. Plus who wouldnt want to have a butt like Kim Kardashian. I think she has the most famous butt other than Jennifer Lopez. If only I could be guaranteed results of getting that kind of body Kim has I would be signed up and be ready to hit the gym everyday.

I guess you have to be born with good genes like that or at least be able to afford a very very good plastic surgeon.

I had real “AHA” moment just occur to me right now. I have been eating a little bit less than I do cause I am so stressed out and while I am still eating the same foods I normally do I am just not eating that much because I have losst my appetite lately. Well I weighed myself a few minutes ago and I have lost 3 lbs. Yeah crazy that I have not tried to lose weight because I am so destracted and busy with other things but I managed to lose some weight. I was looking at a fat burner review but gave up when all this drama happend and just put the losing weight on the back burner and I managed to drop some weight.

I hope I dont gain back those 3 little pounds. I know it might not seem like a lot but to me it is. I always have a hard time losing weight. I have no problem packing it on but when it comes time to getting rid of it I simply cannot manage without a struggle.

I will be the first to admit that I am not the neatest of people. I hate doing chores but I do them cause I have to and lately to keep myself from sulking so much I have been on a cleaning spree. I have even cleaned the blinds a couple of times making sure that no dust has collected on them. I cannot believe how much dust accumulates in places in such little time.

I have always wanted one of those vacumns that suck up 99 percent off the dust out of carpets and everything. I am a electronic gadgets kind of person and if you want to get me a gift that is what I like electronic gadgets. I am not your ordinary girl that just wants flowers and jewelry I like gadgets that I can use around the house. I especially like gadgets that help me clean and make life easier.

Like I have been saying I am so stresed that I wish I could go on a vacation just to relieve some of the stress. I would give anything just to have a Outer Banks vacation rental for a few days and relax. I am not sleeping so good right now and it is totally messing me up.

I think I am going to try some meditation techniques I read online to see if they help relax me. My muscles are so tense right now that it hurts to move around.If all else fails I am going to try and take a nice bubble bath. I really need to find something that is going to relax me right away. Do any of you have any suggestions ?

Damn I have been crying so much lately that I swear my eyes look like they are going to permanently stay puffy. I tried to use some eye cream to alleviate the puffiness. I am not sure if its going to help since I still keep crying and crying. I am just an emotional wreck but I dont know how else to cope with things.

I am trying to not comfort eat since that is what I always tend to do. Maybe if I walked for about 30 minutes to an hour I would feel a little bit better and not give in to this depression. We need a miracle or some kind of solution to these problems we are facing that is what we need. I also need to stop crying !!! It is not going to make things better but I sure do feel a little bit better every time

How can I lose weight when I am going through all kinds of drama at home ? Even though I look up lipozene reviews and other diet methods I cant motivate myself enough to lose the weight when I am going through so much right now. I seriously feel like I am going to have a nervouse breakdown any minute now.

I want to write about all the drama that I am going through but at the same time I feel to embarrassed to let others in “on my business” I tend to keep all my emotions in until I blow up and that is never good. I have always been able to solve any issues that come up and right now I feel like I have no control and I am absolutely hating that feeling.

I need to find the strength someone how. I just dont know where to look. I have been praying and been wishfully thinking but its not working.

The babies have started to breakout. I am wondering if baby acne is anything like adult acne? I dont know what made them break out but I just noticed that they have about 4 little pimples on their face. I know the babies sometimes breakout in the summertime but its been cold here so I dont know whats going on.

I hope these little pimples dont leave a mark on their beautiful faces. My babies have this perfect clean skin right now so these little bumps are bothering me bigtime. If they dont go away by next week I am going to take them to the docter to check them out.

I was hoping to be able to buy one of the many contemporary sofas I looked at to beautify my living room but I doubt I will be able to now. Lets just say that instead of gettting a tax return we are probably going to have to pay. I am a little bit upset about it but what can you do that’s life.

The say when life hands you lemons make a lemonade and that is what I plan to do. I plan to do whatever it is I have to do and keepp my chin up and keep on moving. We may be struggleing now but we wont always be. We are hard workers and are highly motivated,plu the hubby and I make a great team. We will be able to stand through any problems that come our way and be able to survive anything.

I love that we have a strong marriage and even though we dont always agree on things, we are good about getting to compromise on things so we both win. So my sofas can wait I will eventually get the furniture I have always wanted.