As I sit here laying in bed sick as a dog I have given thought to what it would be like owning our own business. I have checked out a few important things we would need like the cash register and one of those Symbol LS2208 barcode scanners to code up the merchandise and of couse the merchandise.

It has always been a dream of my husband to own his own store and I have backed him up and I am now also wanting to participate in his dream. I think it would be so cool if all the family got involved and somehow everyone had a part in getting a store started.

i havent kept up with my excercise and I can feel the pounds piling back on and I am not happy about that. I need to work on keeping up with my excercise and watching what I eat. The holidays are coming up and I know that is the time that I eat the most. I dont want to be having to rely on using diet supplements to control my weight. I just need to get back to a routine and stick with it.

Alot of my friends are losing weight because they are sticking to a routine and going with it. I really need to get a grip of myself and just do what it is I have to do. No more excuses no more slacking off. I need to stick to my goal and pace myself.

I am feeling bored and when I get bored i plan out all these things in my head. Like I want to change the den into a little classroom where the kids can go and do their homework. I have thought of getting a chalkboard and a whiteboard and maybe some classroom furniture for them to sit on. I think they need an area where they can do their homework.

Right now I am using the den as my workspace but I can share with the kids. They usually use the kitchen table to do their work. Hmm these are just Ideas that are floating in my head. I want to paint the rooms too. I just need to find a project that will keep my mind busy.

I am in need of some kind of supplement. I have no energy and my hair is falling out because I am pretty sure I am lacking some kind of vitamin if not many vitamins. I hate taking multivitamins though because they are so big that it seems like I taking horse supplements judging by the size of the multivitamin pills.

My sister-in-law suggested that I go to the docters to get checked out and check my thyroid level because she says that the symptoms I have can all relate to having problems with my thyroid. I think she might be right but I just hate going to the doctors and getting my blood taking out and poked and prodded but I guess that is the only way to find out what is wrong with me .

I think I am going to schedula an appointment and see what is the matter with me.

You know I started thinking about the whole party planning thing and how many times does a party planner get to enjoy the party they help plan ? I mean do they get to sit in and enjoy all the bridal shower games they set up ? I know my cousin gets too because she is usally doing the party planning for her friends but I am saying the ones that do it for a living do they get sit down and just chill afterwards?

I if anything would be like my cousin and just help friends out and close people they recommend. I dont think I would run a huge business and cater to the stars or anything extravagant like that. I would just want to run a little business and do it on the weekends or whenever I had free time (which is never really).

I guess I can sit here and think about it over time because it isnt like I am going to start a business anytime soon but its good to think about the future.

I can get in a lot of trouble when I am bored. I was so bored this weekend that I went a little bid crazy on ebay and ended up winning a few purses. Hey at least I got them for a good price and best of all they are designer purses my favorite. As soon as I get them I will post a picture if them.

Other than my crazy binge bidding I just chilled at home and relaxed like I havent been able to do in a while. My cousin invited me to a wedding that she is going to do but I doubt I will be able to go. The bridal shower is this coming weekend and my cousin has been busy arranging all the bridal shower games. She is doing all the seating arrangements and everything there is to take care of in a wedding and a bridal shower. She is the best event planner that I can think of when it comes to getting parties done. I know who I am going to call when it comes time for me to renew my vows.

Sometimes I think I would enjoy working in event planning but then I think twice when I see the stress level involved.
You have to be very careful when doing the wedding favors and doing the wedding invitations. I think it would be a tad to stressful for me .

With the holidays coming up soon I have started to do a christmas list of things the kids want and even though its highly unlikey that I will get anything big like a Diamond necklaces(hey a girl can wish right) I still make a list for myself.

I always get a big family gift that is for the whole family to enjoy and spend time together and then the kids each get their own gifts. We have such a big family that starting the christmas shopping right now is the right thing to do.
I hope I am able to find good deals online.

My oldest wants a laptop but I think she is too young for that. I dont know how I feel about her having access to the internet all the time.

I havent walked like I was doing before. I really want to lose weight but I am constantly trying everything I can to lose the pounds. I have even given thought to getting HCG injections even though I hate needles I would be willing to deal with it if it meant that I can get rid of all the pounds that wont go away no matter what I do.

I know I am supposed to love myself the way I am but I am not happy with being overweight. I need to keep telling myself that I can do it that I can keep walking . I need to keep eating less and more healthier. If I keep repeating it over and over I will believe it. I need to lose the weight to be healthy for myself and for my kids.

I need to start christmas shopping soon. The months are going by so fast and I know that if I dont start soon I will not be able to get the kids the stuff they want for christmas. I know the older kids want a PS3 and the younger one wants a nintendo DS but I dont know if he is old enough to understand how to play with a nintendo DS.

The kids do deserve a game system though. They have had a playstation2 for the longest time. They are really good kids who do their homework and their little bit of chores like picking up their own room and then they come and ask to play for a bit.

I dont mind them playing for an hour if they have cleaned upo their mess and have been good. They know that having video game time is a reward for them. I am so glad that my kids are so good most of the time. I dont know what I would do if my kids misbehaved all the time.

With my hubbies cousin passing away so unexpectedly It has made the hubby and I realize how quick one can go. We need to be prepared in case of an emergency. I need for my kids to be well taken care of should anything happen. We have been checking out life insurance quotes and seeingn what we can afford. Let me tell you its not a good feeling to be thinking of such things but we now realize that its the smart thing to do.

Jason’s cousin was only 25 he had just turned 25 in may. That is too young to go. Fortunately I believe he had some kind of life insurance to leave his wife but I am not really sure if thats the case. Regardless if he did or not I know that we need to have one because we have too many kids that need taking care of.

We need to check into writing a will too. Its really sad to think that all of this was brought on by our family loss. We still cannot believe that he is gone. I personally am in denial. I dont know if it is a defense mechanism or what but I choose to believe that he is far away on vacation or something. I rather have all those beautiful memories of him.