I like to look at the scenery everytime we drive somewhere and I have noticed how much this town has been growing since we moved here. There are new shops being built and opening. I remember when we first came to look at the house. They were barely going to build a bed bath and beyond. When we signed the papers and moved in they had finished it. It took the contracters less than 3 months to build and open the store.

I have seen new mobile homes being put into a mobile home park and have seen plenty of open houses for alot of these new houses they have here. I was wondering if they have been successful in selling these houses or mobile homes because of the economy. I really wonder silly things when I am in the car just waiting to get to our destination

I have been having problems with my dishwasher since we bought this house. I used the home warranty we got when we bought the house and called the warranty people who sent someone out here to inspect it. Everytime someone has to come out they charge you a 55 dollar deductible. The company comes out here and takes a look at my dishwasher and tell me that there is nothing wrong with it and that I just need to buy a cleaning solution for it.

I buy the cleaning solution for it and then I wait to see if it will dry the dishes which it still doesnt. I call back and let them know that it is still not working. They tell me to give it a few weeks and then call back. I follow their instructions and call them back and guess what for them to come back out there goes another 55 dollar deductible. Now why should I have to pay again if they didnt fix the problem the first time ? These people must think I have money coming out of my butt or something. They must really think we produce money like water coming out of my kitchen faucet.

I think I am going to have my uncle take a look at it before I have to shell out another 55 dollars that I dont have to fix a problem that should have been fixed long time ago. AAARRRRHHHHH!!!!!

I have been having so much stress this month that I am starting to lose my hair. Yeah like as in its falling out. I cant help feeling stressed but I also dont want to go bald. I probably need some kind of vitamin or some type of hgh supplement to help me. I really am not sure what I need all I know is that I need my hair to grow back.

I need to put all my faith in the lord and have him walk me through this tough time I am going through. Sept and Oct are always hard months for me. Now Sept will be a hard month for my hubby and his family since they lost his cousin the 1st of Sept.

I dont understand why people have to go through such hard times. I know there is a lesson to be learned but I dont think I am learning it. I need to be shown what exactly it is that I am supposed to be learning. Why does life have to be so hard sometimes ?

I have been so caught up in what I dont have that I need to stop and feel blessed for what I do have. I need to stop and take time to be thankful that I dont have any serious illnesses going on in our family right now. I need to feel thankful that we have a house and food on our table. I could be in worse predicaments like needing to lookup New York accident lawyers because of some type of accident or needing to file bankruptcy or losing a house for instance.

I get so caught up in feeling stressed and bad for myself that I dont stop and think of what blessing I have been given.
Today is my daughter’s birthday and I have been worried sick how I am going to be paying one of our bills. I am instead going to worry about that bill some other time and just enjoy the day with my girl who turned 8 today.

Tommorow will be another day and I am sure I will find a solution and a way to get things paid for and done. I just need to stop and pray and notice all the blessings I have been given.

Being a mom you would think I would have all the patience in the world. I can sadly say that it is so not the case. I am very impatient. I try to have as much patience with the kids but all the patience I have I use for the kids therefore I have none left over for other people.

I am usually very nice and kind and would never hurt a fly but lately I have been very snappy because I am so stressed. I cant stand having so many things to worry about. I have been trying to not worry so much about bills and money issues but its hard when its money that makes the world go round.

I just hope to someday be financially secure and not have to worry so much. I know alot of our issues we have in this house is because we are having money issues. I hope the economy gets better soon because everyone is suffering from it.

Just in time where I sure could use some money I find a contest where I or anyone else for that matter can win a 50 dollar gift card. I just happend to be looking at Medelita.com contest page and found out about this contest. What I love about it is that its is not complicated to enter either. All that needs to be done is write one blog post or 2 shout outs from anyone of your favorite media sites with the keyword “labcoat”. You can find out more about that contest by clicking on the link medelita’s contest page

I hope I can win but If I dont then I would for any of you guys to win

I need to take pictures of our yard. Jason’s dad has slowly been bringing it back to life. You should have seen the weeds that were growing back there. The one bad thing was that when we bought the house there was no upkeep whatsoever to the yard and the backyard.

Slowly but surelythe back yard is starting to look beautiful.Jason’s dad suggested we get a spa to put back there but all I can think about is the upkeep that it is going to take. I can be so over analytical when it comes to stuff. Instead of thinking about a spa to enjoy I am thinking about the spa treatment its going to need the spa filter its going to need the cleaners its going to take to kill bacteria. I can be so crazy sometimes. I just need to relax but I really dont know how to do that.

Now that I have my license I want a little car for me. I really dont like driving the van. Although I do have alot of kids and could totally do the whole soccer mom thing. I really want a cute little car. My hubby would like a truck with all kinds of truck accessories but I am the one who needs the car not him.

Right now there is no way we could afford to buy another car but in the near future who knows. I totally want a girly car you know the kind that has tinkerbell seat covers and steering wheel covers and the whole nine yards. Its funny though cause I have never been really girly girly but I would totally decorate my car girly girly.

I would love a convertible car but that is going way overboard. What kind of car would be your dream car ?

I have been having such bad tummy troubles. I dont want to go into details on here but lets just say that what I am putting in isnt all coming out. I have been suffering for like a good week now. My sis-in law suggested that I might need my colon cleansed but I have never had that done.

I have been looking at websites that offer colon cleanse reviews but I am still iffy if I want to do that. I have having anything intrusive done on me. I hate going to the doctors. Although if this doesnt fix itself I might have to go. I just cant stand having things doen to me. I probably suffer from all this crap for not eating right. I need to have more fiber and more veggies in my diet. I know I need to eat better but I still dont follow my own advice.

I hadn’t thought about it till now but we are all going to need some sport sunglasses cause I am sure our eyes will be so puffy from the crying. I just wish we didnt have to buy the sunglasses for such a sad occasion.

I have been waking up from the little bit of sleep I have been getting and I keep wishing it was just a nightmare a really bad nightmare but sadly that is not the case. We still cant get over how we could have lost such an important person in our life. He was the rope that held this family together.

I dont know how we are going to get through this loss. I dont know how his mom is going to survive all of this . I can barely keep my composure how do u think she must be.
Please I need to find the strength from somewhere not to fall into the sadness that is dwelling me right now.